Where are you when i need you the most?

Where are you when i need you the most?
u never ever know what i want
never think of why i will have this kind of attitude when I'm with you
i just wanna speak it out all my troubles and stresses but not complaining to you
u don't know what kind of person am i
I'm the kind of person that like to speak out my troubles then I'll forget about it and chill d
but u didn't know..
u thought I'm complaining and still childish
u thought i cannot handle all my troubles and stresses cause I'm still young
what u answered me was just " why u can't be strong?"
am i still not strong enough? or u don't know me well..
for those who know me well then they won't answer me this kind of stupid thing
i feel disappointed seriously and badly..
well, since you want me be strong, then forgive me if i din share anything to you
not i dun want to share, but is i scared d if u told me the same shit again
I'm not a strong person as what u see
i need someones help and support also
but now,
i dun care already
whatever shit you want to do or think, just let it go
I'm tired to think of anything especially you
since I'm not so important to you, so i can do whatever i want, whatever i like
works make me stress and tired, i never rest almost one month d just because of the roadshow
sick + rain , recover then sick again..
so please let me go if u feel tired also..