My life begins to be busy!

Getting more and more tasks to do now..
It's a good thing cause i can learn a lot through those works, i don't want be a fool that don't know anything
Sometimes i will ask myself, "is that what i want actually?"
ermmm it might be? cause never try never know
although i'm not really like to social with those peoples that i don't know, but i will try to change!
I want be a person than stronger than u, i'm not a small little girl anymore
even though i wish i still is, but i have to move forward and improve myself day to day
That's life! no one can help u on everything but only U
I wish i manage to handle all the tasks that given cause i really super duper junior on it:(
n one more thing is: "i wanna improve my english!!!!" 
my english is damn sucks, haix i should learn hard when i was in primary and secondary school:(
now everything stuck on english only cause all of their english are super duper cuper "geng"!
cause they all are english educated (banana) lol
good luck for the upcoming events and i know i can handle it!:)


*special thanks to YOU that always provided all the information that i need ♥

The Fairytale (童話)

When i listen back to this song, it reminds me on someone. 
do u still remember? u are the one that sing this song to me when i was crying..
u were like get shock cause i suddenly cry in front of u
then suddenly u started to sing 
although ur singing was not properly cause u were english educated (banana)
but i feel so sweet and warm cause this was the first time someone sing a song to me
i still remember till now..thanks

失眠的夜晚

这应该不是第一次失眠吧。。
以前的我总会在床上翻滚一直到睡着为止
可是不知为什么这次却失效了
是因为你吗？为何我满脑子装的都是你？
可以请你暂时离开吗？
我不明白为什么当初你硬把我拉进你的生活
可当我习惯了你的存在，习惯了你的好，习惯了你的唠叨，你的一切一切
你却硬生生地吧它给毁灭
是报复吗？恨我之前对你所做的一切？
真的是这样吗？我真的不明白。。
朋友与男女朋友之间是不一样的
别再跟我说那些有的没的，你的承诺与信任早已不存在了
又或许我根本就不应该做那个决定，至少大家对会好过一点
不要在想我们还能像以前那样做回好朋友，至少对于我来说是不可能的
也不要再妄想我会再给你机会，在我的字典里是没有“第二次”的存在
错过就是错过了，永远都不可能会有第二次的机会
这就是我的原则！
别说我无情，因为是你逼我作出这个选择的
如果不是到了忍无可忍的地步我是不会这样做的。。

我是谁？

有些事情错过了就不能再回头
不管怎样不舍  事情总要有个了断
我不喜欢拖拖拉拉的感觉
要就要  不要就不要
虽然做这个决定心会很痛
但总比大家一直躲避而不想去面对和解决来的好
虽然有很多事情都是过后才知道真相
但又能怎样? 我已经累了  不想再去烦这些无谓的事情了
如果你真的珍惜的话当初就不会酱对我
我想这种游戏还是不适合我去玩，我还是做回原本的我比较好
可是我真的能找回自我吗？
原本的我又是个怎样的人呢？

搞笑？

爱笑的女生？

迷糊？

能干？

其实我并不是你想象中那么坚强而已。。。

Making fun in Ikea

Sometimes i will feel like quite boring after work, what we do are just bath, eat, rest then sleep.
Everyday is the same.
So me and Audrey were crazy a bit, maybe is because of nothing to do after work
We took pictures in Ikea even we just went there for dinner.
We "curi-curi" took when nobody around us.
It was fun but the bad thing was we din take a lot of pictures..>.<
cause i was sick d and tired to continue
anyways we'll come back again one day and take until battery die! haha

2 sides of me *angel and evil?* haha

                                                                        cutie Audrey

The flower covered part of my face d lol

*smelling on the flowers*

Covered my face again lol

Audrey likes this kind of flower so much!

We swear we'll come again for shooting! haha

我生气 后果很严重！

从来不容易发脾气的我

在开始做工后竟然变了

刚开始我还好奇为什么我的colleagues全部动不动就"fuck", "fucker" 以及各种各样的骂法

但现在我明白了。。

因为有时你真的会忍无可忍！！

mother fucker the stupid laundry!!

如果你不能帮我洗我的制服的话，那你可以提早跟我说而不是当我去拿时才跟我说sorry

stupid la you!! i need it for my roadshow tomorrow but now u tell me that u can't wash it on time!

当时的我真的很生气，生气到连平时都不讲的话都说出来了

而我的脸色也好不到去哪里

因为我真的很讨厌别人骗我，讨厌到极点！！

就算你要报仇也不需要以这样的方式吧？幼稚到极点！

难道就因为我之前向你投诉你弄坏了我的制服吗？

laundry的人给脸色我看，回到office又要看colleague的脸色

又要担心制服洗不干然后明天不能用

之前的问题已经够烦了，现在又来酱的问题

我不懂我几时会发狂。。

我懂我不笑的表情很恐怖

但请原谅我，因为我真的没心情再笑了。。

现在的我只想静静地一个人坐在那儿，什么都不想。。

爱情结论

纯粹想借分享而已。。

哭，并不代表我屈服；

退一步，并不象征我认输；

放手，并不表示我放弃； 

微笑，并不意味我快乐! 

我们总喜欢去验证别人对我们许下的诺言，却很少去验证自己给自己许下的诺言。

走向最远的方向——哪怕前路迷茫；

抱着最大的希望——哪怕山穷水尽；

坚持最强的意志——哪怕刀山火海；

做好最坏的打算——哪怕从头再来。

曾经拥有的，不要忘记；

已经得到的，更要珍惜；

属于自己的，不要放弃；

已经失去的，留着回忆；

想要得到的，必须努力；

但最重要的，是好好爱惜自己!

喜欢，是淡淡的爱；爱，是深深的喜欢…… 

做错了——改正一下；

伤心了——痛哭一下；

厌倦了——回望一下；

活累了——休息一下；

绝望了——无奈一下。

Where are you when i need you the most?

Where are you when i need you the most?
u never ever know what i want
never think of why i will have this kind of attitude when I'm with you
i just wanna speak it out all my troubles and stresses but not complaining to you
u don't know what kind of person am i
I'm the kind of person that like to speak out my troubles then I'll forget about it and chill d
but u didn't know..
u thought I'm complaining and still childish
u thought i cannot handle all my troubles and stresses cause I'm still young
what u answered me was just " why u can't be strong?"
am i still not strong enough? or u don't know me well..
for those who know me well then they won't answer me this kind of stupid thing
i feel disappointed seriously and badly..
well, since you want me be strong, then forgive me if i din share anything to you
not i dun want to share, but is i scared d if u told me the same shit again
I'm not a strong person as what u see
i need someones help and support also
but now,
i dun care already
whatever shit you want to do or think, just let it go
I'm tired to think of anything especially you
since I'm not so important to you, so i can do whatever i want, whatever i like
works make me stress and tired, i never rest almost one month d just because of the roadshow
sick + rain , recover then sick again..
so please let me go if u feel tired also..

复杂的心情

最近的我不知怎么了
脑袋里塞满了很多乱七八糟的东西
不懂得怎样去分类
也不晓得怎样去解决
我以为你可以做我的聆听者  当我有什么不开心的事情时都可以跟你分享
结果我得到的就只有“为什么你不能坚强点呢？”
一直以来我都是一个人在撑  什么事情都是一个人解决
现在我以为我找到一个可以让我依靠的人
可是呢？ 或许是我不应该向你撒娇， 不应该向你诉苦
毕竟我所经历的事情你已经历过了
对你而言我的“诉苦”只是小事一桩
现在的我真的很累很累
也不想再去想任何东西
你不愿意或不接受也好我也没办法
我不想再一次因为哭而醒过来了。。

无奈

有时真的很无奈。。
无奈某些事情我无能为力解决
无奈为什么事事都要向别人炫耀，可明明就不是什么大不了的东西
我只想要一个清静的地方好好地休息一会儿，因为我知道过后可能连休息的时间都没有了
我只想要一个支持，而不是唠叨
我很明白也了解自己的负担，可是为什么你们却不能体谅下我呢？
我觉得没这个必要时时刻刻都“提醒” 及“暗示”我吧？
我不是superman也不是spiderman， 也不是万能的
我也会累，虽然我没有表现出来。。
只有真正懂我的人才明白我的烦恼及忧愁，可那个人会是谁呢？
她？他？你们所认识的我都只是外在的我，又有几个人发现内在的我其实很孤独？
又有谁真的了解及她我？

现在的我只想像图里的热气球，可以自由的飞翔，远离所有的烦恼，尽情的在一片浩瀚的蓝天翱翔，尽情的在一片绿油油的草地上喷跑